Indecision
by Greg Hillson
These images represent my passion, love, and energy. They also depict self destruction, sickness and turmoil. 3 years ago I was diagnosed with a heart condition, which radically changed my life. In a moment of time, I went from bike racer to 'sick and damaged goods'. I saw myself differently - no longer impervious. I struggled to comprehend, and accept the diagnosis, and the loss of control. How did this happen? After years of abusing my body, an eating disorder, self destructive behaviors, and overtraining, I was left with one option - acceptance. These pictures represent energy, love, suffering and peace. What about the indecision? This is my inability to control everything and my daily battle with calming the voices taking up residence in my head. Living for the beautiful faces I get showering me with kisses and hugs everyday. Slowly, I’m becoming comfortable with indecision and uncertainty. I realize my control comes when I allow the imperfections, vulnerability and uncertainty to exist, this is what makes my life beautiful.
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